Start to RECALL….

I had been suffering depression from 2005 – 2007. I was so afraid to sleep at that moment of times; I will shiver and start scaring myself and I’ll start to cry alone in the middle of the night. I had not sleep for almost 1 week.

Not only insomnia, I also been coughing persistently for 2 years. It was like a nightmare to me for thinking back. Eventually I got my own courage and seek help and landed myself in IMH. Before seeking help in IMH, I had been in out at TTSH for nose ear throat specialist. However I had been transfer to lung specialist, brain specialist & even gastric specialist but none of the doctors had diagnose me of anything so my case file had so called being leave behind.

I was brave enough to face myself so I start receiving medical treatment from physicist and series of therapy treatment from physiologist. I been visiting my physiologist for half year and I got myself discharge however I still need to continue my medicine (sleeping pill & anti-depressant) as I still have some anxiety at night however I’m sure that I had recover as I’m as confident as I in the past, and I’m not afraid to tell anyone that I’m once a IMH patient.

I had learn more body wellness stuff during my half year therapy, thus I believe I’m better in coping my emotional and life than a normal person. Now I’m happy as my life resume normal and I don’t cry for so long and I DON’T COUGH anymore. Begin happy and I get my 10 hour sleep a day and been healthy always.

Thus I always believe is up to you to choose whether to live happily or sadly. Don’t be afraid to choose, if you’re sad just be brave and walk away as you’ll never know what’s better a thing is waiting for you outside.

I’m very grateful for the patient that given from Bee & Wendy. Thanks for being there for me and accompany to my treatment. Life is short thus don't give up yourself easily.

Lot of thanks to:
Ms Anrai Lai (physiologist from IMH)
Dr Mok (physicist from IMH)

So longgggg….. never blog!

25/10/2007 Thursday
Today Wendy is supper weird as she kept asking question like:” miss are you going tomorrow” or “Later did you miss up Bee?” I thought she wana date me. Guess what at around 7pm, a florist man at my door step with this 6 BEAR BOUQUET. Oh my god!!!! I had never these in my whole life. Worse is Wendy didn’t write her name on the birthday card and she act as my secret admirer, however I was smart enough to reveal her truth color. Sorry Wendy BUT I really love your surprise.

26/10/2007 Thursday

Sigh… no wonder I feel something is missy, oh is the florist shop give me the wrong bear. Thus I had email them about it, however they told me the bears is out of stock thus I had to choose another kind. This is what they delivered to me on Sunday morning 28/10/2007

I really love PINK guess WENDY going to kill me as she wanted me to change…. Not to in love with PINK!!!!

29/10/2007 Monday

Today is my birthday, Bee book a 3 days chalet which is the same chalet where I hold my 21^st Birthday. That was sweet right, he really never fail to surprise me even he is penniless.

1^st he ask the florist man to deliver this bouquet to me, too bad timing was wrong. The florist man hand the bouquet to Bee instead of me.

Lovely rainbow “12 bear bouquet” I really in love with this mini bear in a bouquet than a Huge Cuddle Bear and waste the space on my bed. Thanks Bee you’re so sweet.

Next come is my surprise gift, after dinner while we’ll watching TV. I spot my present on the couch where I was sitting. When open out, oh dear… that is what I looking for however I never see a VAIO portable hardisk before. Furthermore it is PINK!!!!November week nos 1

I had been so tire after the chalet as the bed is so Out Of Shape till I didn’t able to catch my beauty rest, however I still enjoy myself well despite of the raining days.

I had been sleeping a whole week once I got home…. I miss my bed and CARE BEAR!!!!

November week nos 2
DIY week!!! I spent whole week to do my hobbies. Bo Pian I still on holiday mood.

My diy stuff:

A 3D ribbon hairclip that I had make so I can used it when my hair perm in this coming December, I had seen Angela using it when she is going to school in “Romantic Princess” Hopefully I can become like her after I got my hair perm. Hee…

This will be my 2008 organizer, I’m getting myself to be well prepare for the new coming term. Hopefully 2008 will be better than 2007. Afterall I don’t really enjoy 2007 as I always fall sick.

I miss Christmas, more PRESENTssss please!!!!!